Curt and I decided we needed to spend more downtime as a family, which is hard with two jobs, and lots of extra work. But we held true to our promise and had a date night Friday night while the girls spent the night at Grandpa Kulzers house. Then Saturday we went to swim lessons for Reegan ( with a 10 minute tantrum from across the pool MOMMY!!!) and then home for the afternoon. Then last night we went up to Burt and Kari's for game night. We got some good video of cousins Reegan and Riehle dancing via the PS3, and had fun playing games.
We came home this morning to get chores done and back to real life. Bath time and introducing Zoey to her toothbrush ( note that is bathtub crayons behind them and the water is green from color changing salts) and the girls had a blast while eating lunch. Its the simple moments in life............
Alright, I can excuse my absence in the bloggin world! My computer crashed shortly after my last post, and I just got it back today. I have a ton of pics and videos to share! We had friends over NYE, MOA girls day, sledding, Zoey crawling, Zoey walking, Muscle gym and Harold and the Purple crayon!
So I am gonna start with some videos. uploading since I got my computer back, so this is the start!
Yes, its been a while. And we've been, I've been CRAZY busy, just like you. We had a wonderful Christmas. Santa brought Reegan a train table, and Zoey a fun cookie jar. And I got a new flip video camera so I can take more videos again!
Saying goodbye to 2011 is bittersweet. The year of the Zoey. Cannot imagine my life without her~
So after coming home from work yesterday, the girls were playing with Reegan's new doctor kit. And cue laughter.
Fallen a lil behind in my blogging. ( as pointed out by a certain sister~) Had a lovely evening in Duluth with my Mom, sister Molly, and my girls. Went to Bentleyville, and stayed the night at The Edgewater.
But I digress, or make excuses. So this posting will be a two-fer.
Most self reflection sites come back to something you are grateful for, couldn't live without. And for this posting, I am reflecting on my #1 fan, who I couldn't live without. My husband.
Curtis
Husband, friend, father to my babies, companion, life partner, opponent at times.
I saw in him at 15 exactly what I wanted in a mate, and he has been with me through the good and the bad. He can tell when I am mad, when I shouldn't be mad but am, and when I am on the verge of crying. We may not always see eye to eye, but we see heart to heart, and to me that is what matters the most. I couldn't live a day without him. This year hasn't been perfect, especially when one of has was extra hormonal from pregnancy.....wink wink. But we managed through. We know we are in it for the long haul.
High point in our marriage this past year: The birth of our 2nd daughter Zoey, and introducing her to Reegan and the rest of our family
Low point in our marriage: Fight ( that would have been a normal fight) if someone wasn't extra hormonal. I take full responsibility.
Perfect relationship? No.
Areas of improvement: Spending time together. Just the two of us. We've always struggled with this because we have very different interests. But we always meet in the middle and find something we both enjoy. We enjoyed Dueling piano bars this year and will hopefully get there again.
He knows how much I love him. I think about him leaving, or not being here, and I cannot imagine a second, a day or a lifetime without him. He is an amazing dad, and I love watching him and the girls interact. I know areas in our relationship that can use improvement, and I strive to reflect back on the past year, and make it right in 2013. And discuss when Kulzer #3 is gonna work its way into our madness. And its only gonna get better!!........................................
In the moment reflection
As I sit in our living room, in a house I dreamed to raise my family in, my husband is sleeping downstairs, Reegan is reading about her 10th book to herself, and Zoey is down the hall sound asleep. The gentle glow of our Christmas villages, Christmas tree, and snowflake lights are the only on except the TV and computer screen. I know it snowed today, and its colder today then it has been in a while. Reegan and I spent the evening doing pre-k learning exercises. Learning colors, shapes, numbers, and animals. So much fun to see her learning and loving put all the information together. She can count to 40ish, knows all her colors, and some in spanish. Loves animals and the sounds they make and where they live, but now has a new favorite.......PENGUINS! Tonight we spent time learning just about penguins, and she loved it. She is amazing, such a sharp, bossy lil red head. I see so much of myself in her. I can remember loving learning, and wanted to know everything, and she definetly has that trait. And probably gets her bossiness from me too. Maybe. :)
Zo pup is so on the move! The past few nights she has been sleeping 12+hrs plus 3-4hrs during the day napping. That tells me she is so close to something big! She is crawling, when she wants to. But usually only gets a stride or two. She can go from belly to sitting, and can pull herself to her knees, and sometimes to standing. She has a lil temper, loves to clench her fists and yell at us and turn all red, often. Its cute though. And she is bottomless pit. We cannot feed her enough. She LOVES to feed herself, and then when shes eaten everything and gets nothing more, she throws the scraps everywhere. We are working on "all done" in sign language, and she is close. Reegan bit her last week, so she is a lil unsure of Reegan when she gets too close. But they are the best of friends.
Highlight of today: the three of us girls in the bathtub, laughing, and splashing.
Low point: Doing dishes. I Hate doing dishes. We need the new dishwasher. STAT! I am gonna attach the videos from Bentleyville and Edgewater, and will add the video of Zoey's temper. ENJOY!
As a kid, your parents doubt you
As a new nurse, your patients doubt you
As a new Mom, your spouse ( and sometimes baby) doubt you
Doubt that you will succeed? Maybe. Doubt that you won't be perfect? Probably. Doubt that you'll never ask for help? hopefully not. Doubt that you cannot live everyday with a smile on your face? yup. doubt doubt DOUBT.
But some people live their lives hoping people doubt them. I am one of those people.
Doubt that I won't succeed, I will. Doubt that I won't get that IV in, I will. Doubt that I will break down and ask for parenting advice, I WILL. I love to overcome doubt.
Until its self doubt. Until I am questioning myself, my life, my career, my love. Then I chicken out.
Self doubt is the biggest obstacle for me to overcome. I cry, I self pity, I loathe, until................. I overcome, somehow. Until, I do. Usually pulled over the hump in the road by a handsome husband, a curly headed redhead, and a smiley Zo pup that remind me that while the world may doubt me, including myself, they do not. My Mom and Dad may have doubted me, but they wouldn't dream of it now that I am grown. They need me to overcome everyone else's doubt to provide food on the table, and a roof over their head. They need me to overcome. And suddenly, I can self doubt no more.
