Self doubt

As a kid, your parents doubt you
As a new nurse, your patients doubt you
As a new Mom, your spouse ( and sometimes baby) doubt you
Doubt that you will succeed? Maybe. Doubt that you won't be perfect? Probably. Doubt that you'll never ask for help? hopefully not.  Doubt that you cannot live everyday with a smile on your face? yup. doubt doubt DOUBT.

But some people live their lives hoping people doubt them. I am one of those people.

Doubt that I won't succeed, I will. Doubt that I won't get that IV in, I will. Doubt that I will break down and ask for parenting advice, I WILL. I love to overcome doubt.

Until its self doubt. Until I am questioning myself, my life, my career, my love. Then I chicken out.

 Self doubt is the biggest obstacle for me to overcome. I cry, I self pity, I loathe, until................. I overcome, somehow. Until, I do. Usually pulled over the hump in the road by a handsome husband, a curly headed redhead, and a smiley Zo pup that remind me that while the world may doubt me, including myself, they do not. My Mom and Dad may have doubted me, but they wouldn't dream of it now that I am grown. They need me to overcome everyone else's doubt to provide food on the table, and a roof over their head. They need me to overcome. And suddenly, I can self doubt no more.