Saying goodbye to 2011 is bittersweet. The year of the Zoey. Cannot imagine my life without her~
So after coming home from work yesterday, the girls were playing with Reegan's new doctor kit. And cue laughter.
Happy 2012! From our family to yours.
Saturday, December 31, 2011
Its been a while
Yes, its been a while. And we've been, I've been CRAZY busy, just like you. We had a wonderful Christmas. Santa brought Reegan a train table, and Zoey a fun cookie jar. And I got a new flip video camera so I can take more videos again!
Saying goodbye to 2011 is bittersweet. The year of the Zoey. Cannot imagine my life without her~
So after coming home from work yesterday, the girls were playing with Reegan's new doctor kit. And cue laughter.
Happy 2012! From our family to yours.
Saying goodbye to 2011 is bittersweet. The year of the Zoey. Cannot imagine my life without her~
So after coming home from work yesterday, the girls were playing with Reegan's new doctor kit. And cue laughter.
Happy 2012! From our family to yours.
Sunday, December 11, 2011
Wednesday, December 7, 2011
Good Morning Osceola!
This morning Reegan wanted Zoey to sit with her on the couch and then said "Mom! Get your camera!!
And as promised, Zoey.
Tuesday, December 6, 2011
Two-fer
Fallen a lil behind in my blogging. ( as pointed out by a certain sister~) Had a lovely evening in Duluth with my Mom, sister Molly, and my girls. Went to Bentleyville, and stayed the night at The Edgewater.
But I digress, or make excuses. So this posting will be a two-fer.
Most self reflection sites come back to something you are grateful for, couldn't live without. And for this posting, I am reflecting on my #1 fan, who I couldn't live without. My husband.
Curtis
Husband, friend, father to my babies, companion, life partner, opponent at times.
I saw in him at 15 exactly what I wanted in a mate, and he has been with me through the good and the bad. He can tell when I am mad, when I shouldn't be mad but am, and when I am on the verge of crying. We may not always see eye to eye, but we see heart to heart, and to me that is what matters the most. I couldn't live a day without him. This year hasn't been perfect, especially when one of has was extra hormonal from pregnancy.....wink wink. But we managed through. We know we are in it for the long haul.
High point in our marriage this past year: The birth of our 2nd daughter Zoey, and introducing her to Reegan and the rest of our family
Low point in our marriage: Fight ( that would have been a normal fight) if someone wasn't extra hormonal. I take full responsibility.
Perfect relationship? No.
Areas of improvement: Spending time together. Just the two of us. We've always struggled with this because we have very different interests. But we always meet in the middle and find something we both enjoy. We enjoyed Dueling piano bars this year and will hopefully get there again.
He knows how much I love him. I think about him leaving, or not being here, and I cannot imagine a second, a day or a lifetime without him. He is an amazing dad, and I love watching him and the girls interact. I know areas in our relationship that can use improvement, and I strive to reflect back on the past year, and make it right in 2013. And discuss when Kulzer #3 is gonna work its way into our madness. And its only gonna get better!!........................................
In the moment reflection
As I sit in our living room, in a house I dreamed to raise my family in, my husband is sleeping downstairs, Reegan is reading about her 10th book to herself, and Zoey is down the hall sound asleep. The gentle glow of our Christmas villages, Christmas tree, and snowflake lights are the only on except the TV and computer screen. I know it snowed today, and its colder today then it has been in a while. Reegan and I spent the evening doing pre-k learning exercises. Learning colors, shapes, numbers, and animals. So much fun to see her learning and loving put all the information together. She can count to 40ish, knows all her colors, and some in spanish. Loves animals and the sounds they make and where they live, but now has a new favorite.......PENGUINS! Tonight we spent time learning just about penguins, and she loved it. She is amazing, such a sharp, bossy lil red head. I see so much of myself in her. I can remember loving learning, and wanted to know everything, and she definetly has that trait. And probably gets her bossiness from me too. Maybe. :)
Zo pup is so on the move! The past few nights she has been sleeping 12+hrs plus 3-4hrs during the day napping. That tells me she is so close to something big! She is crawling, when she wants to. But usually only gets a stride or two. She can go from belly to sitting, and can pull herself to her knees, and sometimes to standing. She has a lil temper, loves to clench her fists and yell at us and turn all red, often. Its cute though. And she is bottomless pit. We cannot feed her enough. She LOVES to feed herself, and then when shes eaten everything and gets nothing more, she throws the scraps everywhere. We are working on "all done" in sign language, and she is close. Reegan bit her last week, so she is a lil unsure of Reegan when she gets too close. But they are the best of friends.
Highlight of today: the three of us girls in the bathtub, laughing, and splashing.
Low point: Doing dishes. I Hate doing dishes. We need the new dishwasher. STAT!
I am gonna attach the videos from Bentleyville and Edgewater, and will add the video of Zoey's temper. ENJOY!
This one is long, just FYI.
But I digress, or make excuses. So this posting will be a two-fer.
Most self reflection sites come back to something you are grateful for, couldn't live without. And for this posting, I am reflecting on my #1 fan, who I couldn't live without. My husband.
Curtis
Husband, friend, father to my babies, companion, life partner, opponent at times.
I saw in him at 15 exactly what I wanted in a mate, and he has been with me through the good and the bad. He can tell when I am mad, when I shouldn't be mad but am, and when I am on the verge of crying. We may not always see eye to eye, but we see heart to heart, and to me that is what matters the most. I couldn't live a day without him. This year hasn't been perfect, especially when one of has was extra hormonal from pregnancy.....wink wink. But we managed through. We know we are in it for the long haul.
High point in our marriage this past year: The birth of our 2nd daughter Zoey, and introducing her to Reegan and the rest of our family
Low point in our marriage: Fight ( that would have been a normal fight) if someone wasn't extra hormonal. I take full responsibility.
Perfect relationship? No.
Areas of improvement: Spending time together. Just the two of us. We've always struggled with this because we have very different interests. But we always meet in the middle and find something we both enjoy. We enjoyed Dueling piano bars this year and will hopefully get there again.
He knows how much I love him. I think about him leaving, or not being here, and I cannot imagine a second, a day or a lifetime without him. He is an amazing dad, and I love watching him and the girls interact. I know areas in our relationship that can use improvement, and I strive to reflect back on the past year, and make it right in 2013. And discuss when Kulzer #3 is gonna work its way into our madness. And its only gonna get better!!........................................
In the moment reflection
As I sit in our living room, in a house I dreamed to raise my family in, my husband is sleeping downstairs, Reegan is reading about her 10th book to herself, and Zoey is down the hall sound asleep. The gentle glow of our Christmas villages, Christmas tree, and snowflake lights are the only on except the TV and computer screen. I know it snowed today, and its colder today then it has been in a while. Reegan and I spent the evening doing pre-k learning exercises. Learning colors, shapes, numbers, and animals. So much fun to see her learning and loving put all the information together. She can count to 40ish, knows all her colors, and some in spanish. Loves animals and the sounds they make and where they live, but now has a new favorite.......PENGUINS! Tonight we spent time learning just about penguins, and she loved it. She is amazing, such a sharp, bossy lil red head. I see so much of myself in her. I can remember loving learning, and wanted to know everything, and she definetly has that trait. And probably gets her bossiness from me too. Maybe. :)
Zo pup is so on the move! The past few nights she has been sleeping 12+hrs plus 3-4hrs during the day napping. That tells me she is so close to something big! She is crawling, when she wants to. But usually only gets a stride or two. She can go from belly to sitting, and can pull herself to her knees, and sometimes to standing. She has a lil temper, loves to clench her fists and yell at us and turn all red, often. Its cute though. And she is bottomless pit. We cannot feed her enough. She LOVES to feed herself, and then when shes eaten everything and gets nothing more, she throws the scraps everywhere. We are working on "all done" in sign language, and she is close. Reegan bit her last week, so she is a lil unsure of Reegan when she gets too close. But they are the best of friends.
Highlight of today: the three of us girls in the bathtub, laughing, and splashing.
Low point: Doing dishes. I Hate doing dishes. We need the new dishwasher. STAT!
I am gonna attach the videos from Bentleyville and Edgewater, and will add the video of Zoey's temper. ENJOY!
This one is long, just FYI.
Saturday, December 3, 2011
Self doubt
As a kid, your parents doubt you
As a new nurse, your patients doubt you
As a new Mom, your spouse ( and sometimes baby) doubt you
Doubt that you will succeed? Maybe. Doubt that you won't be perfect? Probably. Doubt that you'll never ask for help? hopefully not. Doubt that you cannot live everyday with a smile on your face? yup. doubt doubt DOUBT.
But some people live their lives hoping people doubt them. I am one of those people.
Doubt that I won't succeed, I will. Doubt that I won't get that IV in, I will. Doubt that I will break down and ask for parenting advice, I WILL. I love to overcome doubt.
Until its self doubt. Until I am questioning myself, my life, my career, my love. Then I chicken out.
Self doubt is the biggest obstacle for me to overcome. I cry, I self pity, I loathe, until................. I overcome, somehow. Until, I do. Usually pulled over the hump in the road by a handsome husband, a curly headed redhead, and a smiley Zo pup that remind me that while the world may doubt me, including myself, they do not. My Mom and Dad may have doubted me, but they wouldn't dream of it now that I am grown. They need me to overcome everyone else's doubt to provide food on the table, and a roof over their head. They need me to overcome. And suddenly, I can self doubt no more.
As a new nurse, your patients doubt you
As a new Mom, your spouse ( and sometimes baby) doubt you
Doubt that you will succeed? Maybe. Doubt that you won't be perfect? Probably. Doubt that you'll never ask for help? hopefully not. Doubt that you cannot live everyday with a smile on your face? yup. doubt doubt DOUBT.
But some people live their lives hoping people doubt them. I am one of those people.
Doubt that I won't succeed, I will. Doubt that I won't get that IV in, I will. Doubt that I will break down and ask for parenting advice, I WILL. I love to overcome doubt.
Until its self doubt. Until I am questioning myself, my life, my career, my love. Then I chicken out.
Self doubt is the biggest obstacle for me to overcome. I cry, I self pity, I loathe, until................. I overcome, somehow. Until, I do. Usually pulled over the hump in the road by a handsome husband, a curly headed redhead, and a smiley Zo pup that remind me that while the world may doubt me, including myself, they do not. My Mom and Dad may have doubted me, but they wouldn't dream of it now that I am grown. They need me to overcome everyone else's doubt to provide food on the table, and a roof over their head. They need me to overcome. And suddenly, I can self doubt no more.
Friday, December 2, 2011
7 Truths
7 truths about myself, that my childhood created. 4 positive, 3 negative.
1. A very loved person
2. Manners
3. Self-confidence
4. Well-Educated
5. Bossiness
6. Need to Always be Right (Conceited)
7. Strive to please others
Well, alot of these come from being a first born, which I had NO control over. :)
I grew up in a very loving with 2 loving parents, and learned very early on that I was very loved. In fact, even in my teenage years when I did step out of line, my parents disciplined me~ which I find to be the one of the most loving things parents can do. They didn't let me run a muck, but taught me right from wrong, which has shaped me into who I am today. I was their "helper" from an early age, as my Mom had her hands full with my sisters. I loved to please my parents, which has grown into pleasing other people (which is very helpful in the nursing field) I loved to overcome the simpliest of tasks and run back to my mom and show her how well I had completed it. And usually in record time, mind you. That slowly led me to believe I was the boss and in control as well. That got me into trouble in school, but I did do quite well in school. I have a mind full of knowledge, and love to know everything (know it all). Somedays its hard to stay out of other peoples business in the quest to know it all.
I also use manners at all times. My parents raised us 4 girls that pleases and thank yous go along way. And I have found that to be true in adult life and my career. That being said, I also was taught to have self-confidence, which mixed with manners can come off very conceited. I am a person that always needs to be right, however, have learned in the past few years that I can admit to being wrong a lot easier then in the past.
The point I'm trying to make here is that I realize that I AM human, that I DO bleed, and that I'm NOT perfect. When I'm in a calmer state of mind, I willingly accept that I can empower myself by striving to make improvements to my overall character. And isn't that just what life is truly all about? Learn to be yourself, accept yourself, AND, if at all possible, progressively make changes towards improving yourself? Each of us can be compared to an artist's unfinished canvas, a work in progress, a potential masterpiece in the making. Yet no masterpiece, or person, is ever quite finished. There seems to always be another stroke of paint for the artist to add, if he really thinks about it long enough. Thus, it is up to each individual to spend some time each day adding or reversing paint strokes onto his or her personal canvas in order to improve on the total picture. Simply put, it's up to each of us how we view ourselves, and, largely, how others see us too.
1. A very loved person
2. Manners
3. Self-confidence
4. Well-Educated
5. Bossiness
6. Need to Always be Right (Conceited)
7. Strive to please others
Well, alot of these come from being a first born, which I had NO control over. :)
I grew up in a very loving with 2 loving parents, and learned very early on that I was very loved. In fact, even in my teenage years when I did step out of line, my parents disciplined me~ which I find to be the one of the most loving things parents can do. They didn't let me run a muck, but taught me right from wrong, which has shaped me into who I am today. I was their "helper" from an early age, as my Mom had her hands full with my sisters. I loved to please my parents, which has grown into pleasing other people (which is very helpful in the nursing field) I loved to overcome the simpliest of tasks and run back to my mom and show her how well I had completed it. And usually in record time, mind you. That slowly led me to believe I was the boss and in control as well. That got me into trouble in school, but I did do quite well in school. I have a mind full of knowledge, and love to know everything (know it all). Somedays its hard to stay out of other peoples business in the quest to know it all.
I also use manners at all times. My parents raised us 4 girls that pleases and thank yous go along way. And I have found that to be true in adult life and my career. That being said, I also was taught to have self-confidence, which mixed with manners can come off very conceited. I am a person that always needs to be right, however, have learned in the past few years that I can admit to being wrong a lot easier then in the past.
The point I'm trying to make here is that I realize that I AM human, that I DO bleed, and that I'm NOT perfect. When I'm in a calmer state of mind, I willingly accept that I can empower myself by striving to make improvements to my overall character. And isn't that just what life is truly all about? Learn to be yourself, accept yourself, AND, if at all possible, progressively make changes towards improving yourself? Each of us can be compared to an artist's unfinished canvas, a work in progress, a potential masterpiece in the making. Yet no masterpiece, or person, is ever quite finished. There seems to always be another stroke of paint for the artist to add, if he really thinks about it long enough. Thus, it is up to each individual to spend some time each day adding or reversing paint strokes onto his or her personal canvas in order to improve on the total picture. Simply put, it's up to each of us how we view ourselves, and, largely, how others see us too.
I know that without these 7, good and bad, I would not be who and where I am today. I pray my girls will have the same loving relationship with Curt and I as I did with my parents. And still do.
Thursday, December 1, 2011
31 days of self reflection.........
A month from today will start a new year, 2012. Wowie. 2011, which was such a big year in my life, went fast. And while most of the world makes New years resolutions, I have choosen to do things a little bit different. I am going to blog, the next 31 days of self reflection. I am using Trust 30 as my guide, but doing things a lil different. I want to reflect on the last 11 months, the birth of my 2nd daughter, my 4th year of marriage, my evolving career, and my growing family while preparing for 2012.
#Trust30 is an online initiative and 30-day writing challenge that encourages you to look within and trust yourself. Use this as an opportunity to reflect on your now, and to create direction for your future.
There will still be alot about the girls I am sure, as they are my world, and everything right now. But at the same time, I want to use the blog to remember alot of right nows. Things I wouldn't otherwise remember in 10 years. As my dad and I were discussing yesterday, 10 years from now when my dad will be due for his next colonscopy, I will have an almost 13 year old and almost 11 year old. Wowie. I wanna absorb every little thing right now, and use it to make me more appreciative and remind myself how very blessed I am on every level of my life.
For those of you that follow this blog via facebook, this will be the only posting to facebook. But feel free to follow along if you'd like.
Before I start a lil later today, the girls as I am writing this..............
She is officially today 2 and a half!!
#Trust30 is an online initiative and 30-day writing challenge that encourages you to look within and trust yourself. Use this as an opportunity to reflect on your now, and to create direction for your future.
There will still be alot about the girls I am sure, as they are my world, and everything right now. But at the same time, I want to use the blog to remember alot of right nows. Things I wouldn't otherwise remember in 10 years. As my dad and I were discussing yesterday, 10 years from now when my dad will be due for his next colonscopy, I will have an almost 13 year old and almost 11 year old. Wowie. I wanna absorb every little thing right now, and use it to make me more appreciative and remind myself how very blessed I am on every level of my life.
For those of you that follow this blog via facebook, this will be the only posting to facebook. But feel free to follow along if you'd like.
Before I start a lil later today, the girls as I am writing this..............
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